Thursday, November 29, 2012

Top of the Line


What do I need to do to make you see?
You are everything I will ever need.
Your love is fruit from a poisonous tree.
Intrepid, addicting, a binding creed.

What do I have to say to make you stay?
Because ‘I love’ without ‘you’ is nothing true.
I could say this for forever and a day
It will be nothing new, it’s pressed into glue.

What do I have to play to make you hear?
The music that is blaring in my heart.
Which is only for you, only your ears.
It will be pinned on your heart with a dart.

I am so lucky that you are now mine.
Our love is top of the line on cloud nine.

The Strange Stranger


A lone man reading a newspaper,
Takes time to sip his black coffee out,
Of a paper cup
He looks calm and at ease.

Flips the page of the black magazine,
Folds the rest of the pages behind the rest of the pages
He was so interested.
He looks up quickly but doesn't notice me.

He looks at his sleek black phone
Bored.
He purses his pale, thin lips
Half smiling

A joke perhaps?

He is staring at the table,
Nothing in front of him,
But dirty dishes, 
Piled on top on one another

I wonder what he is thinking. 

Doors


Crisp, clean, white,
A door.
I walk towards it, peer in
A door to my right and left.
A mystery beyond.

What is behind each door?

I could be anything,
Cleaning produces, a security room,
Anything

One door looks old,
Rust matted the outside of the lock, corroding the key hole

The other looks new,
This had no lock, free to open and explore.

I imagine what lie beyond each.
Then I think…

The first door is my present – where I stand before both doors.
The second door is my past -  already drawn and printed.
The third door is my future - something I’ve yet to understand.

Supposed To Be (Slam Poem)


Is it worth it?
All these years of schooling that we commit?
Is that the point of life?
To spend it in a classroom under a surgical knife?
To gain knowledge for what?
For it to be thrown into a job with a pay cut.
For 20 years or more,
Forced like prisoners of war.
Forever fighting to keep a “good” education.
What will morticians find in a postmortem examination?
An empty shell of a girl that wasted her time
Participating in a victimless crime.

A crime that force-feeds people experience, humanity?
For the sake of Christianity.
I get a job that I spend another 40 years working at
Achieving nothing but a stat
On a board that has probably been keeping a tally
Like a lily of the valley
Keeps track of deaths
Keeps track of the breaths
That a girl can keep before she achieves freedom
From a serfdom
That keeps on going and going and going
Knowing, owing, towing

No life experience
I am inexperienced,
Inadequate for the real world,
I am stuck in a dream-world; twirled
Of what the real world is supposed to be
Shown what I am supposed to be to an intolerable degree.
The empty shell of a girl is blinded
Am I supposed to be well minded?
Or the scholar athlete and valedictorian of the year?
Because for this girl it’s definitely not crystal clear.
I didn’t learn about the world in school
Or the golden rule.

What do we live for?
Go through a Revolutionary War for?
For a job, an education, a reputation?
Or for a love, a family, a vocation?
I waste life away
Sitting in a room for hours a day.
Getting told what is right and wrong
Playing tag along with a loose cannonball
That I drag behind me, reminding me
I have to at least get an associate degree
When I just want to live life my way.
But I’m stuck in another school day. 

Muddled, Rainy Puddles


A snare, tangled vines constricted hope,
Mangled, strangled, broken.
Only a fool would believe there is an antidote,
A ticket out of here, a subway token.

A box, enclosed within are lies,
Undisclosed, juxtaposed, hidden
All closed up inside
Like everything is forbidden.

A muted sob, full of unheard pain.
Endured, curse word, survive
Silent but as public as a political campaign.  
I’d rather sky dive off a cliff doing a nose dive.

My mind, muddled, filled with rainy puddles
So befuddled, all grouped in huddles, laughing at my struggles.

Curve


Gravel crunches under the worn tires of the sleek, black Audi,
As it speeds its way up the single lane, winding mountain pass.
The moon is full in the black night sky,
Stars twinkle, millions of fireflies strung like lights from the tree tops.
A sharp turn, the driver’s headlights illuminate the next steep curve.
Frantic to escape his drunken wife, is up for any challenge.
                                                                                   
The complete darkness of the small road is proving a challenge.
Although, the driver loves his Audi.
It is not the most practically car to drive on the pass with so many curves.
No one could see the driver if they had happened to pass.
The driver harshly blinks his eyes which bore into the curve’s top.
Headlights rushes toward him, seemingly from the sky.

The headlights fall out of the sky,
Swerving, struggling to keep control of the mountain’s challenge.
The birds audibly flock from the tree tops,
As the lights continue, quickly, to approach the Audi.
The driver hastily veers left to let the speeding lights pass.
The driver can’t understand how the lights haven’t hit a tree as it, yet again, curves.

In blatant shock, the driver watches the birds in the sky flying in curves.
Time is running out the lights have left the sky.
The driver knows he isn’t getting a free pass.
The driver knows the lights, as well as himself, have both lost the challenge.
The lights are going to crash into the Audi.
The driver has five seconds to get out of his car and run, tops.

It just wasn’t enough time; he had a better chance of God rising above the tree tops.
The irony of the situation at hand was eerie, as the lights illuminate the sickening curves
Of an equally sleek car that belonged to the driver’s drunken wife, barreling toward the Audi.
The drunken wife is slumped back in her seat, head angled toward the sky,
Seemingly asleep, completely unaware of the pass’ challenge.
The two cars are face to face now; the driver mutters a prayer, begging for a quick pass.

And quick was the pass.
The ground quaked as well as the tree tops.
The crash looked painfully, warning people who were next to try the challenge.
The birds take flight, showing off how easily they take the curves.
The black mass of little, fluttering birds blanket the sky.
A few take a rest on the heap of cooling hunk of metal that used to be an Audi.

The mountain’s challenge has come to pass.
It left two dead, one welded chunk of metal containing an Audi and God-less tree tops.
The imaginary curves formed by the birds are still flying, undisturbed, uninhibited, in the sky.                                                                       

To My Robin Hood

While the World is Spinning revised (Because i didn't like it at all)


Dear Mom,
Thinking about it now,
I thank you about as much,
As a musician thanks his violin bow,
So thank you for being my crutch,
The person I can turn to in times of trouble,
Like the arrowhead at the end of the stick,
You’re my much needed air bubble,
When at the bottom of the sea and can’t kick,
I feel so far from the surface,
And I think staying under for good,
I feel myself resurface,
Because you’re my Robin Hood,
So thank you for rescuing me,
Giving me all I need,
A and B and C and D,
To help me to succeed. 

Heartache


Little knights in rusting armor,
Brandishing silver blades,
Storm the castle.
Slashing every cherished possession in sight.
It wasn’t even an overly large castle either,
Some foreigners say it was built three sizes too small.
The tapestries were written over,
The already weak dining table,
Broken into splinters under their weight,
And the two emeralds, once so bright and full of life,
Were replaced with fool’s gold.
Hardly believable enough to pass by
Even the most gullible peasant.
The once powerful and brave Queen was dethroned.
Harshly underappreciated.
Dragged down from her pedestal
 Like a rag doll thrown from a child’s hand.

Heartache (Original)



Little knights in rusting armor,
Brandishing silver blades,
Storm the castle.
Slashing every cherished possession in sight.
It wasn’t even an overly large castle either,
Some foreigners say it was built three sizes too small.
It was hardly big enough to protect itself from an attack.
The tapestries were written over,
The already weak dining table,
Broken into splinters under their weight,
And the two Emeralds, once so bright and full of life,
Were replaced with fool’s gold.
Hardly believable enough to pass by
Even the most gullible peasant.
The once powerful and brave Queen was dethroned.
Dragged down from her pedestal
 Like a rag doll thrown from a child’s hand.
Harshly underappreciated.

At Court


They are faceless, nameless, hopeless.
The sickly, young mother clutches the thinning boy’s hand.

The band of on lookers behind her, snicker at their misfortune.
The bench on which they once sat is vacated.

They rise, cruel, taunting,
Throwing fists and insults left and right.

Yellowing paper floats to its rest on the dusty court room floor.
Dirty like the mother’s crime, stealing food for her starving son.

She cowers in the bench corner,
Tucked in the corner like a cowering mouse from a house cat.

She’s almost blue with hyperventilation.
‘This is the day,’ they say, ‘We take the boy away.’

Young Priestess


She stands elegantly poised,
Long, index finger brushing cheek,
Leaning her weight on her left leg,
Both hands clutching the golden staff to her left

Half hidden behind her bright carnation pink gown,
The staff glittered in the soft sunrise of the morning,
Throwing sparkles of light on the walls and floor,
Beside bare toes peeking out the bottom of her robe.

She is effortlessly beautiful,
Goddess-like, confident, but mysterious as well.
Soft mahogany waves concealing part of her eye,
Like a waterfall, hiding a cave of wonder

She is hoping the painter could capture the realism.
Without it, she feared, she would look dull and lifeless,
Against the white drop sheet behind her.
A false memory, imprisoned behind a frame.

She stares as though looking off, at an unknown distance.
Looking disapprovingly at it, her large eyes wide.
Cherry lips pursed, a ‘v’ embedded between her eyebrows.
Something is wrong.

Her beautiful features overcome with horror,
Bare feet falter as she tries desperately to escape.
She tangles herself further in white clothe,
Cloaking her like a devil’s snare. 

Frantic movements inhibit freedom,
Looking up, face ashen,
One last futile cry clogs her throat,
Time freezes, she’s trapped.

The painter makes the last stroke of the painting,
Entertaining a wicked smile.
How’s that for realism?

Young Priestess (Original)

She stands elegantly poised,
Finger brushing cheek,
Leaning her weight on her left leg.

A golden staff was half hidden,
Behind to bright carnation pink gown.
Her bare feet just peeking out the bottom.

She looks effortlessly beautiful.
Goddess-like, confident, but mysterious as well.
She was hoping the painter could capture the realism.

She stares as through looking off, at an unknown distance.
She looks disapprovingly at it,
Something was wrong.

Her beautiful features are overcome with horror,
Her bare feet falter as she tries to escape.
She tangles herself in the drop curtain behind her.

Her frantic movements inhibit her freedom.
Looking up, face ashen.
Time freezes, she's trapped.

The painter makes the last stroke of the painting,
Entertaining a wicked smile.
How's that for realism?

At Court (Original)

They are faceless, nameless, hopeless
The sickly, young mother clutches the thinning boy's hand.

The band of on lookers behind her, snicker at their misfortune.
The bench on which they once sat is vacated.

They rise, jittering, taunting,
Throwing fists and insults left and right.

Yellowing paper floats to its rest on the dusty court room floor.
Dirty like the mother's crime, stealing food for her starving son.

She cowers in the bench corner,
She is a nasty shade of green

She's almost blue with hyperventilation.
'This is the day,' they say, 'We take the boy away.'

When the World is Spinning (original)


The world is falling apart around us.
  Hundreds of people drop dead daily from a myriad of things,
    Sickness, disease --- heartache
      My family says I am supposed to keep alive.
        I’m supposed to run away, stay alive.
          I don’t think they realize that I can’t leave.
            I can’t leave this family that has loved me
              Unconditionally and wholeheartedly.
                What should I do?
                  I can’t comprehend leaving; it’s not even an option.
                    If you get this pled before dawn tonight,
                      Save us.
                        The sun is dropping fast.
                           Send an angel down and save us.
                              Reach your glowing hands that created the Earth, through the clouds
                                And save us.
Please.

Looking Back


We all look so young. I told Jake for the third time
While running my soft fingertips over the photo’s silky front.
Well, it’s been years, Emma.
I smiled sweetly and snuck a peek at Jake. He was smiling as well.
We both let out a bubbling laugh we were trying to hold in.
Our original purpose of looking through these pictures
Was to select a couple for our graduation party.
But we were having far too much fun commenting
On every single photo we came in contact with.

He set aside the photo in the ‘keep’ pile and picked through the rest of them
That were spread on my hardwood clad bedroom floor.
He held up another photo and pointed at something that escaped my notice.
My mind kept wondering back to the last photo.
I remember the day exactly.

The approaching winter air was bitter against our rosy pink cheeks
That were hot from hard play.
We had already undressed from our tasseled hats and woolen mittens.
They were unnecessary now;
Our body heat was more than enough to keep us warm.
Our laughter rang like the chimes at church on Sunday,
High pitched and often.

Hours later,
My friends, Jake, and I were still playing our imaginary games,
Adding our own rules and establishing a forever-changing safe spot.
We had a small pile of treasures that we had found in my backyard.
Jake’s dad gave us an old shoe box to put them in.
A few rocks, dead leaves and small figurines
That we had lost during the summer months.
We vowed to never lose them again.
Of course, we had found them in another place in our yard a year later.

A flash suddenly distracted me from my attempt
To catch Jake in our intense game of tag.
I stopped and looked at my mom holding up a large black camera.
We all crowded together in a little group
Smiling brightly and slinging our arms over each other’s shoulders
Say “Cheese”! She encouraged.
We smiled until I thought our faces would rip.
The camera flashed again, blinding us for only a second.

Emma, EMMA!
The voice swiftly brought me out of my flashback.
Jake was looking at me strangely,
Lips pursed slightly and his left eyebrow cocked up.
Don’t stare, it’s rude.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Looking Back (Original)

We all look so young. I told Jake for the third time
While running my soft fingertips over the photo’s silky front.
Well, it’s been years, Emma.
I smiled sweetly and snuck a peek at Jake. He was smiling as well.
We both let out a bubbling laugh that we were trying to hold in.
Our original purpose of looking through these pictures
Was to select a couple for our graduation party.
But we were having far too much fun commenting
On every single photo we came in contact with.

He set aside the photo in the ‘keep’ pile and picked through the rest of them
That were spread on my hardwood clad bedroom floor.
He held up another photo and pointed at something that escaped my notice.
My mind kept wondering back to the last photo.
I remember the day exactly.

The approaching winter air was bitter against our rosy pink cheeks
That were hot from hard play.
We had already undressed from our tasseled hats and woolen mittens.
They were unnecessary now;
Our body heat was more than enough to keep us warm.
Our laughter rang like the chimes at church on Sunday,
High pitched and often.

Hours later,
My friends, Jake, and I were still playing our imaginary games,
Adding our own rules and established a forever-changing safe spot.
We had a small pile of treasures that we had found in my backyard.
Jake’s dad gave us an old shoe box to put them in.
A few rocks, dead leaves and small figurines
That we had lost during the summer months.
We vowed to never lose them again.
Of course, we had found them in another place in our yard a year later.

A flash suddenly distracted me from my attempt
To catch Jake in our intense game of tag.
I stopped and looked at my mom holding up a large black camera.
We all crowded together in a little group
Smiling brightly and slung our arms over each other’s shoulders
Say “Cheese”! She encouraged.
We smiled until I thought our faces would rip.
The camera flashed again, blinding us for only a second.

Emma, EMMA!
The voice swiftly brought me out of my flashback.
Jake was looking at me strangely, he gave me his signature look,
Lips pursed slightly and his left eyebrow cocked up.
Don’t stare, it’s rude.
I couldn’t help but laugh at his sarcastic remark,
I was so glad I had friends like him to keep life interesting.